Like ND and Itzel and most of you wuld say… angE FINALLY updated…

Okiez, I’m sorry about not having a good enough reason or excuse for not updating this past yr (9 months?)… wellz, aside from I was being an over achiever and taking the maximum course load here… sighz I know that’ s not a good enough excuse. Hopefully you are all doing better than me *smilez

So here’s what’s happened recently. Most of you probably know that Ive been wanting to be an RA for quite a while. But I eventually gave up on itL partly because I was waitlisted… but mainly b/c I still don’t really know what I want to major in… and it’s getting kind of scary. So took my parents’ advice on taking care of myself before I take care of others. At least for next year, I will focus on finding a major (I know it’s going to be the sciences… not sure which field tho) find my own direction and if I have time ill go back to being an RA.

My whole freshman year in college went by with several interesting events… being sent to the ER first week of school, roomie’s drunk friend throwing up all over my bed, making friends with different people, getting to know how different people could be, taking the drive test 4 times… there were many things I was upset abt during the time, but now that I look back… I have become stronger and everything that happened just seems to be a funny/memorable mark in my life.

Freshman yr ended sooner than I expected, before I knew it I was moved into a single aptmt and summer was here. My planned summer was to finish the ochem sequence and take a road trip with my family while they are here. Didn’t work out… Grandpa got really sick and everyone had to go back… except for me, because I was registered for classes and had no plane ticket. Later on I dropped ochem because I wasn’t doing too well in the fast paced class leaving me stuck here with nothing to do. So I picked up two political science classes for fun (well, also b/c mom is trying to convince me to be a lawyer and I was really frustrated with ochem and didn’t know if I liked sciens as much anymore). To my surprise, I found the classes interesting… however, the feeling for these classes is nothing close to my passion for the sciences and the medical field… so yup in fall I will be back in the lab with my science classes. However, these poli sci classes- legal studies and china politics have shaped me into a more well- rounded person.

To top everything, my computer is completely dead… and I am actually writing this up in my school’s computer lab… sooo many unpredicted things in summer… but all in all it’s not really a bad summer. It’s just a learning experience… another experience to know that things cant always go your way. No matter how homesick you are… how anxious you are… you just have to wait… at least I am not completely alone, thanks to Eddie and Cheryl who are almost always with me and to Rahul and Itzel who calls me up once in a while. In December I will finally get to go home, hopefully, I will get to see every one I want to see then. Let me know if you will be in tpe then!

It¡¦ been a week since everything happened¡K

The night in the hospital is an experience I dread and would rather put behind¡K but it really isn¡¦t until the toughest times when I realize how much i mean to the people around me and how grateful I am to have every one hereJ

Special thanks to the hospital and emergency staff, my floormates/RAs/CDs, my sweet friend, ace, and most importantly my puppy (baobao/ed).

So here¡¦s a brief overview of what happened¡K

Reluctant as she is, ange finalli arrivez at college and fell in love with the campus:D everything is cool¡K perfect floormatez (shez talking abt no drugz, drinking n those kinda probz¡K but very willing to help when they can/ez to get along ) nice teacherz (wellz MOST of them¡K NOT all, that would b too good to be true) friendly people (willingly make friendz n invitez people over for chatz) sense of community (haven¡¦t really seen a store that doesn sell U of O thingz)¡K neway all this seemz too good to be true¡K n so something DOES happen¡K Last friday was like any day, kinda exhausting but everything was good, however at night ange ends up with a fever and faints 3 timez, she scared her puppy so bad he sends her to the hospital on an ambulance (never thot she would b on one¡K scary) at the hospital she is asked to wear a hospital gown (yesh.. those backless onez:P) it was really awkward caz most of her nurses and docz were guyz, a urine sample and two test tubez of blood are drawn and an IV shot is injected¡KThe same questionz are asked over and over again ¡§Did you do drugz? Did you drink? Did you have sex? Are you sexually active? Are you on pillz?¡¨ n of course the answer to everything is ¡§NO!!!¡¨ next door, a drug addict swearins at the police officerz so ed decides they should leave the hospital once the IV finishes. At 2 40 am edz roommie picks them up (yesh¡K ange is such a trouble makerL) so for the whole weekend, ed took care of ange¡K gives up his bed, cooks, doesn sleep well¡K n ange feels bad for being such a trouble:S however b/c of all this ange realizes how much she meanz to ed and how much ed meanz to her;) Monday ange is back in her room¡K with 4 classes to go to¡K still tired but aliveJ on tues, ange¡¦s floormatez throws a welcome bac party for her¡K very touching (dunno how to post picturez.. but if u wanna see them, u can msg ange *smilez) lastly, for the follow up examination, the doctor couldn find nething wrong.. says it could b the flu, cold, food poisoning, medication allergy¡K yeah he has this long list of ¡§could bes¡¨ but nothing definite, however, ange is feeling much better and thanx to every one that cared/calledJ

End of story¡K

Now this is the second weekend¡K so far everythingz good¡K no big episode like last week¡K hopefullyJ got bored, didn want to do work or sleep early caz itz Friday so I chatted with my floormatez last nite (Wellz the onez that didn go partying) woke up this morning to phone callz from two veri special people- mr Arnold and itzel¡K always nice to hear from home and people im close to. Last nite i was on the phone with dad (weird how sometimez we both just got really really quiet, yet I appreciate the feeling of knowing dad is on the other end of the line¡K feels sooo much closer) and aunt (yeah the one in seattle¡K) ¡K habnt talked to mom for a while miss her a LOT (she was in tainan¡K hopefulli ill catch her tonite) missing everyone bac home¡K my family/hs friendz/teacherz/god mother. Getting long¡K b4 I end this post, I would like to thank mel for calling me every morning b4 class caz I would prolli hab missed a few classes already if it weren¡¦t for her callz¡K but I would like to apologize to her too for always hanging up so soon caz I have to get readi for class¡K but keep in mind girl¡K im always happi to hear ur voice and take care of urself, mom, n dad love you all and missing you allJ n okiez long post¡K time for ange to get bac to work¡K 2 3-4pgz lit essayz, a 5-6pgz research paper, and 2 chem labz¡K ummmm work time:D n if neone misses me (I kno u all do:P¡K just drop a line on msn/aim¡K or email me for my number/add¡K im missing you all too)

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plz puppy get well soon... it hurtz to hear u w/o ur voice and to see you so tired. drink lotz of water... get rest n ill talk to you later tonite, i love you~

smilez hello world... habnt been updating for a while:P so like it or not, ange finalli packed her bagz n left tw.. ummm that was actualli abt 5 dayz ago? n now shez lazing around at her auntz in seattle:P will b moving on to OR  this weekend:P

nothing much... other than walks around the neighborhood with mom n getting lost... every day we get lost somewhere in the neighborhood, n every day we go around walking again (nodnod.. u would think maybe some day we would learn to stay indoorz, but no:P) aside from walking, we ve been shopping wellz not realli... just walking around mallz, not reli gettin nething, since itz kinda ptless to lug every from here to OR wen we can just get the stuff in OR :P oooooh guess wat? i hab hw alreadi... this 400 pg readin, n skool hasn started yet... wellz itz gonna start soon:P but yeah still... summerz ending.. kinda sad n excited... caz itz been a while since i was in skool:P too much summer can be fatal... as in u start to miss skool *shiverz

hmmmmm.... barely a week from tw n im missing home alreadi. wellz more like missing mel n dad n friendz n my cozy bed (even tho ive been sleepin on the floor for a while)... oooooh n tw food:S smilez n finally last but not least letz not forget my puppy, but ill see him soon:) puppy take care n hab a safe flight~

okiez bed time:)

Smilez first i would like to thank all the people that stuck with me and cared abt me during this time (whether itz an email/msn chat/physicalli being here/phone call). i guess itz really clear now, who is worthy n who is not... N wen it comez to letting go, itz easier said than done, but ill hab to find the courage to do it;)¡K much as i hate ending/changing thingz, a decision is a decision

Sorri to the people ive been complaining to lately¡K i appreciate ur presence n i dun ask for u to understand everything, but if u are a true friend u will wait for me to get my mind settled down n still b there afterwardz¡K i wish u will wait b/c i realli believe family is most important¡K n once this part is settled, ill hang with u guyz, i promise. However just want all the ppl that hab been here for me to kno that although rite now i cant always be there physically for u, im realli just a call/msg/email awayJ¡K i try my best to treat the ppl i meet/friendz the way i want to b treated

ive come out¡K or rather in process of coming out of my own ¡§departing dilemma¡¨. tearz are still unavoidable, n wont b for a while, prolli caz i was soooo dependent/attached¡K but ive come to b strong... n wen itz time to leave, ill b readyJ

Looking at my chatterbox now i think itz turning into a ¡§complain central¡¨¡K ppl hab been goin #$#$%^& lately hmmmm cheer up guyz¡K smilez n yeah i hab shuld start doin that first¡K hopefully u will all cheer up with me;) try to enjoy the rest of summer ppl.

¡§nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so¡¨-william shakespeare... nodz as i think bac now, im actualli veri lucky to hab u all with me- a great family, loving bf, n understanding friendz... even tho this is a low pt, but thru each low pt, u get to see the "real" ppl... the onez that are worthy n realli care *smilez hence i thank god for the upz n downz in life